"Susun's story
is a powerful and moving tribute to the truth in the ancient adage that
tells us to be true to ourselves. I have long felt drawn to Susun Weed
but was never quite sure why. Reading her autobiography I am beginning
to know and understand the why of it. My heartfelt thanks to Susun for
putting into print such private and deeply emotional aspects of her
life and to you, Justine, for making these writings available to those
of us who need to read them." Lindy
Part One
I didn't grow up wanting to be an herbalist. As a child
I lived a few short blocks from the Dallas City Zoo. At night, as the
stars came out and I laid in my bed waiting for sleep, the trumpeting
of the elephants and the roar of the lions and the hoots of the monkeys
were my lullaby. And my dreams were filled with spirits, urgings, feelings.
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Part Two
What a relief to leave behind the bustle of New York City
and settle into the rhythms of Nature. In the city the parks were paved
and nature was something we had to seek out and visit. Now my toddler
daughter and I had a green lawn and an herb garden. We could spend as
much time outdoors as we wanted. We were part of Nature and She was
surely part of us. READ MORE

Part Three
From Ohio to Texas to California to New York to the open
road and back again to the
Catskills, my path may have seemed meandering, but it was as purposeful
as any river,
carrying me closer and closer to the sea, though I little comprehended
where I was headed. READ MORE

Part Four
"Me teach a class in herbal medicine? Unthinkable!
Impossible! Absurd!" READ MORE

Part Five
What causes change? What moves through a life and changes
it? Astrologers look at the
transits of the planets to explain the change. My mentor Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
lays it to the
ever- changing chaos of the ever-lovin' universe. Followers of the Dao
would say that since I
had it all, the next step was to lose it all. Whatever the answer, I
can only speak for the
results: One week I was a teacher at a college, living with my daughter
in the home we built
ourselves, by hand, on an organic farm in the Catskills, the next week
I had neither job nor
home. READ MORE

Part Six
"You definitely don't want to buy that place,"
the realtor said. "It has a mile-long driveway that
goes straight up. It's all right for a summer house, but not much else."
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Part Seven
It was a beautiful autumn day: the purple asters were
in full bloom, five-finger ivy leaves flamed red from above, the maple
leaves had just begun to turn yellow and orange, and scores of mushrooms
of every variety -- from delicious black death caps to lurid sulphur
shelves that taste like chicken -- were peeking through the moss and
forest floor litter. But I couldn't see the beauty. I was too upset
about the prospect of losing the land I had just moved on to. READ
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Part Eight
With the taxes paid, and the tax burden reduced, it seemed
that my dream of women's land in the country had finally come true.
It had taken a lot of hard work to make it happen, but it wasn't time
rest and congratulate myself. This was just the beginning. The hardest
work was in front of me. Now I had to care for my dream, to tend it
faithfully, to see to it that it grew and prospered. READ
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Part Nine
"You must learn to smile even if you don't feel it," she
said, sternly but gently. I certainly didn't feel like smiling, but
I knew I had to do something different. I was in so much emotional pain
I felt like I was drowning. I felt weighed down, heavy, victimized,
ostracized, villanized, powerless, unhappy, bitter. I knew what herbs
to use: motherwort tincture gave me a warm lap to snuggle into; skullcap
tincture helped me lose my pain in sleep; comfrey infusions comforted
me and eased my tears. But all the herbs in the world didn't seem enough
to lighten my outlook. READ MORE

Part Ten
Grief and loss, outrage and despair continued to accompany me on my
journey of becoming an herbalist, but they no longer threatened to overwhelm
me. Strange though it seems, smiling made me feel better. The more I
smiled, the more I felt like smiling. The more I smiled, the more energy
I had. READ MORE

Part Eleven
What was I doing standing in the snow on a cold February night surrounded
by candles? I was in the midst of a ceremony of commitment. It was just
before my birthday and a few days past Candlemas, and it seemed to me
to be an auspicious time to make a commitment. READ
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