I am a spiritual midwife, called by the God-Us to heal the Earth by
healing birth. I first heard my call to assist women becoming mothers,
to realize birth as a spiritual as well as a natural rite-of-passage,
by birthing my own babies consciously. My initiation in giving natural
birth was in January of 1970. It was the first time an obstetrician
had seen a woman squat on the delivery table to give birth. Post-partum,
when I wouldn't be separated from my newborn Loi Caitlin, (as they had
no rooming-in arrangement) they put me back in the labor room with my
baby. A laboring mother in the next bed was screaming, "Ah Dios,
Dios!" How she suffered: My heart went out to her and I soothed
her from my bed, my first experience as a spiritual midwife.
About this time in my life, I began to teach childbirth education and
prenatal yoga classes. My goal was to help more babies be born consciously
-- thus, creating a sustainable future for my own child -- and future
grandchildren. I had a significant dream during these years -- In my
dream two brilliant white doves flew to me. I watched them land on my
hands, and when they walked from my hands, now tingling with energy,
up my arms, to my heart, I was filled with radiant light. I understood
at that time that my hands and heart were agents of the healing light.
It was awhile later that I met this archetype in the Greek myth of
the two midwives who flew to the birth of the twins Artemis and Apollo
in the form of doves. By then I was well known as the "baby lady"
of my community and preparing for my next challenge in reclaiming birth.
My second and third births were twins and when I was in the hospital,
they x-rayed me and announced that my pelvis may be too small and I
would need a cesarean section. I checked myself out of the hospital
and went home to give ecstatic birth to my footling breech baby, Oceana
Violet and her head first twin, Cheyenne Coral. From that point on,
1974, I have only birthed and midwifed at home. I clearly saw what a
distraction hospitals can be when giving birth.
After my third birth, I understood that I needn't hire anyone to be
paranoid for me when laboring to bring forth my young. In 1975 I became
a spiritual midwife whose main tools are my faith in the naturalness
of birth, my healing hands and word medicine.
My community made me a midwife by asking me to attend births. Rather
than getting trained by an institution, and learning a medical set of
rituals to take women through birth, I apprenticed directly to birth
itself. My promise as spiritual midwife is to honor the journey, be
attentive to what presents itself, and remind a mother by my presence
that she already knows how to give birth. I trust that if a woman consciously
conceives her baby without the help of experts, she is able to give
birth unassisted by the medical experts. My "back-up is whatever
God-Us is "on call" that night -- in over a generation of
attending births, every woman I have midwifed has given spontaneous
birth.
Once I was called to a birth and forgot to bring my birthing kit. Then
I realised that I am my midwifery kit -- I had my ears through which
I could hear the baby's heart, I had my hands through which I could
feel the baby, and I had my heart -- which loves the baby earthside.
After that experience in 1980, I founded HYGIEIA COLLEGE, a mystery
school in womancraft and lay midwifery I teach the "inward skills"
-- how to cultivate intuition and know our embodied perception is the
medicine bundle, or midwifery kit par excellence.
At this writing, mid-90's, there are over 600 students currently enrolled
in Hygieia College, studying an essential midwifery which locates the
power to give birth in the God-Us -- a divine life-force which brings
our babies to the light. It is an international mystery school which,
I am proud to say, graduates midwives who practice differently than
I. Each midwife serves her own community, and is responsive to what
is best-for-life in the moment. Rather than a method, or a training
course, Hygieia College is a journey to the sources of healing and an
un-training of erroneous beliefs and actions which interfere with spontaneous
childbirth. I see this un-training process akin to removing the mind
swaddling of the prevailing technocratic culture.
From attending birth mindfully, I recognized that there is a lot of
work to be done to heal fertility, specifically the abortion epidemic
and on the other extreme, infertility. Women who had abortions as well
as women who had difficulty conceiving, are more likely to have difficulties
surrendering to the power of the birth-force. In 1986, my partner Frederick
Baker and I published the tome CONSCIOUS CONCEPTION: ELEMENTAL JOURNEY
THROUGH THE LABYRINTH OF SEXUALITY. In this book we articulate the practice
of fertility awareness as an opportunity for Self-realization, in the
specific focus of fertility. My work in spiritual midwifery includes
conscious conception and I often connect with a family before they conceive
their baby in capacity of midwife. What I notice is that a baby who
is consciously conceived, who is desired by both mother and father,
already has the foundation for health, wholeness and holiness in place.
A baby who is not wanted, on the other hand, is spiritually handicapped
in that their Source, the earthly mother and father, are disconnected.
Children who are not wanted are more likely to be abused, and "act
out" for negative attention -- for it is better to be wanted by
the police than not at all.
According to research reports, babies who are born in violence (standard
obstetrical management of birth in hospital) are more likely to be involved
in violent crimes as youths and adults. (See the Jonn Vascocellos congressional
report from California.) My work in conscious conception, toward making
every baby a wanted baby (rather than a mistake in a contraceptive method),
contributes to a more peaceful society.
My firstborn son, and fourth baby, Gannon Hamilton, was our first freebirth.
We didn't pay anyone to be responsible for our baby's birth and in 1980,
my partner, the baby's father, and I experienced a most powerful spiritual
initiation. There were no other adults present to distract us from the
immense sexual bonding of the original lovers greeting their newborn
together. The Holy Trinity has new meaning for us since Gannon's birth
-- Mother/Father/Baby. And we honored the Son as he is -- already enlightened,
whole, perfect. Needless to say, no circumcision.
When I conceived and birthed my fifth baby, Quinn Ambriel, in 1985-86,
I prepared for these experiences as a vision quest. I was given a vision
which has sustained me spiritually ever since. When I ecstatically gave
birth underwater to my fifth baby Quinn, I saw every mother on this
earth giving birth with her lover between her legs -- in a unique, and
creative expression of love. No masked man, no paid paranoid in attendance
-- only the original lovers who first invited the new one to join them
in holy family.
I see this as central to what will bring peace and an authentic self-sufficiency
to the world. Once parents birth their own babies, in a balanced partnership,
they know they can also take care of this baby. The trust that is established
in a freebirth, a delivery free of MANipulation and medical control,
lasts a lifetime.
The fear-based imprint of hospital birth is "the institution will
take care of me". The consequence is socialized welfare -- the
institution of government taking care of our own responsibilities. Again
the experience of being my own midwife has made me freer ever since
and the sequel of homebirth naturally follows: natural healing at home
(no pediatricians), home school (no teachers), and the living experience
of spirit (no churches). We do not rely on institutions to mediate or
make safe life for us. Birth is as safe as life gets.
As a spiritual midwife, my primary responsibility is to empower the
mother to give birth spontaneously. The tendency is to enroll in the
cult of experts who say, "I know more about your body than you
do." My responsibility as a healer is to return any projections
of power upon me to the family I am serving. The truth is that I am
not medically nor surgically skilled -- I cannot deliver a mother's
baby for her. Rather, I remind the mother that she is the only one able
to give birth (her other option is to be delivered) -- and I support
her every way I can. In this way I am able to respond to my original
calling -- to be the guardian at the gate.
To aspiring healers who are called to attend childbirth, I advise the
following; first, midwife, heal thyself, Next, do no harm. Remember
your own birth and forgive any trespasses upon your soul. And always,
listen to the still, small voice within -- and the voices of countless
mothers before who gave birth with dignity and as a natural expression
of sexuality. Last, realize that mothers who give freebirth can connect
with the Source of all creation and be the God-Us in action.
It is an honor to see the original face of any new one. Each baby born
holds the light very purely and as a spiritual midwife, I greet the
new one with celebration and gratitude for the ordinary miracle of birth.
Humility, patience, trust, integrity -- these qualities are essential
to a spiritual midwifery practice. I was called as a young woman myself,
yet traditionally it is the grandmothers who are asked by Spirit to
be midwives. Now that I am a grandmother, I see the wisdom in first
being seasoned by life before answering the call. However, as a young
midwife, I would take my children to births with me, considering this
the best part of their home school experience. Therefore I encourage
young midwives to be who we really are -- if we have children, to give
a living model to the families we serve by being real mothers and taking
care of our own children. Hygieia College was founded, in part, to meet
the needs of mothers desiring to increase the upward mobility of their
minds as mothers. Our college holds all gatherings and workshops with
children not only invited, but honored.
At the edge of the millennium, more midwives are being ordained by
the God-Us to heal birth without being indoctrinated nor controlled
by medical licensure. In that one legal definition of a license is permission
to do what society considers "dangerous or immoral, we are choosing
to be midwives based on authentic need. Homebirth is not dangerous or
immoral" --actually the converse is true -- hospital birth is dangerous
and immoral. The U.S. is 20th in the World Health Organization's statistics
on perinatal mortality and morbidity. In other words, there are 20 other
countries in the world where it is safer to give than birth than in
an American hospital. The other countries with better statistics almost
exclusively use midwives rather than doctors. But what about the "consumer"
or "patient" -- do they not need protection? Let me clarify
that I am not suggesting a "buyer beware" attitude toward
midwifery. If a midwife is capable, she will stay in practice. If a
midwife is not serving her community, she will eventually not be asked
to attend anymore. We do not need the State in our bedroom for indeed,
birth is a woman's expression of sexuality -- and in my practice, not
under legal or medical jurisdiction.
Traditionally midwives are the wise women, the herbalists and psychologists
of their communities. They knew who was sleeping in whose lodge -- and
being attentive to the sexual dynamics of their communities, could facilitate
the sexual energy of birth. A major eradication of wise women took place
in the dark ages and most midwives were destroyed as "witches".
It has taken a long time for a renaissance in birth to occur. Midwives
today must be courageous to practice in our constrictive and litigatious
climate. Sometimes the most courageous amongst us, are targets of litigation.
Midwives need the support of the entire healing community to face the
challenges ahead.
In 1986 I gave birth underwater to my last baby, Halley Sophia. As
in our last three births, we hired no expert to attend "just in
case". All my work is devoted to making every mother a midwife
-- so I practice what I preach. I live in a state where parents have
the right to chose where and with whom they give birth so we broke no
law. Yet, in my neighborhood there was an unease which, in my pregnant,
intuitive condition, I sensed. I went to my neighbor's church on a fast
and testimony meeting day and addressed the congregation all at once.
I said, "I have prayed about this birth and have been told that
being home is our sacred place. However I have one fear and that is,
if something goes wrong in this birth, I'm concerned what you would
think. So, I now ask that you pray for a perfect delivery at home."
After the meeting, the very ones who had been in the most fear about
our upcoming unattended birth, now were enrolled as allies for they
soothed me with stories of their own relation's various births at home
and promised to pray for us.
With all these prayers, during Halleys ecstatic birth, I had a vision
where I had eyes all over my body and could "see" multi-dimensionally.
I realized that I was like the White Hole in astrophysics -- that source
point where something new comes into material existence, the opposite
of a Black Hole. My uterus is the universe -- I am the stargate. As
mother, I am the means by which life creatively expresses itself and
giving freebirth is akin to the origin of stars. In other words, I know
how God-Us must've felt giving birth to the universe.
How can my personal experiences in birth serve the world now? One idea
of how evolution works, is the morphogenetic field theory of Rupert
Sheldrake. It has been popularized by Ken Keyes in his book, THE HUNDREDTH
MONKEY. What this idea states is that there are leaps of evolution for
an entire species which occur simultaneously amongst all members regardless
of geographic location. In regards to childbirth, I observe the phenomenon
of morphic resonance in this way -- more and more families are choosing
to freebirth, all over the world. When a critical mass is reached of
ecstatic rather than suffering birth, there just may be a leap of faith.
All mothers may remember that we are co- creators of life and have totally
within each of us the capacity to show the world what our love looks
like in the form of a baby. Whenever I give a talk or workshop, I imagine
that the one mother who is the "critical mass" for freebirth
may be attending and inspired by my word medicine to reclaim birth.
Indeed, each mother I speak with, in my mind, is the hundredth monkey,
a change agent for evolution, as well as the God-Us incarnate. For as
the canon of Hygieia College states, Healing One Mother is Healing the
Earth. Blessed Be the Babies!!
Jeannine's three books are available for sale by mail order:
PRENATAL YOGA is US$20 including postage
HYGIEIA is US$35 including postage
CONSCIOUS CONCEPTION is US$50 including postage
Please mail checks (in US $ only) payable to
Freestone, to Freestone Publishing, PO Box 398, Monroe UT 84754 USA.
Also check out her website at http://www.freestone.org/
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